It's really interesting how things pan out in the end at work. With one supervisor and full timer terminated, it seems like we part timers are holding up half the sky now. And, with us holding up half the sky (and with his 2 good buddies at work gone) I wonder if I could safely say, that we are now closer.
I doubt if I can actually say that with certainty but for now, for this very brief period, I actually feel this way. But all this is about to change soon.
I am running out of time to make my decision- whether to join full time or not.
He leaving to join back of the house soon so I won't be seeing him much, if at all. I am sure, I will miss him. Plus if I join full time, it will change the dynamics of our relationship right?
But to quote a wise sage, " For things you can change, why worry about them? For things you can't change, what's the point of worrying about them?
I completely agree but I am STILL worrying!
And last but not least, I hate how I seem to be evolving into a green-eyed monster. I never knew I was capable of such immaturity. But at the end of the day, the hard truth is......he is not mine, and I just have to learn to accept that. It will take time, quite a bit of time. But am sure I'll get there in the end. Have faith.
